Phone meeting

I had my first phone meeting with our adoption specialist.

She's sounds amazing and super nice and understanding. so thankful for that.

the beginning of the phone call did not go how i imagined it to. she had this idea to refund our application fee and to reapply when bubba got back from afghanistan.

i did not like that idea. not at all.

so i asked her why this would be the case and that we didn't have any problem with them holding onto the money even if we needed to fill out an update application when he got back. i explained to her our intentions and why we applied when we did and that being as the process takes so long we were hoping to get some things done even though he was gone.

like the 11 pages of questions for our autobiography we have to complete. super long. to be honest some questions that i really don't feel like answering, but whatever it is, it will be worth it in the end.

as for this phone call. it ended well. she got permission from her supervisor for us to continue the process while he is deployed. YAY!

we have our first meeting scheduled. and it's at our home! I think this is a great idea because it's not going to be a formal homestudy review, but just so she can look at everything and let us know things that may need to be taken care of. which i can hopefully do while bubba is gone. another thing off the checklist and one less thing to do when he gets back.

things like the back pond (fencing it or filling it) i don't know what else. i will find out at the meeting.

i'm really wishing that bubba could be here. it's another thing that he will miss out on. it's a bummer. and these types of things stress me out. and i really feel like the process is better with him here.

but if we want this process to get going, then it's just another thing that we have to do. just another part of being in the military. boo.

the whole thing got me thinking. she will come here. and rowan will be here.

to tell her or not?

to this point we haven't told her. we openly talk about everything in front of her, but to honest she doesn't pay any attention to us. possibly because she doesn't even know what the words mean.

but that's ok with me. with us. talking to bubba about it, we don't know if we are ready to tell her. we were planning on telling her once we had an approved homestudy.

food for thought:

i found this link for anyone who needs some guidance one explaining adoption when you already have a child: http://www.threeyellowroses.com/2009/06/01/adopting-with-children-at-home/

so we are thinking. processing. reading. praying.