Chaos... constantly.

Life has been more busy than I've ever experienced.

I feel more like an adult now than ever and I can't believe that Christmas is only 4 days away!

With the upcoming holiday I sit here and I think about all the children who are without homes.. for the holidays, the time where families come together from far and wide. And those children in foster care, many of them don't have families. It just breaks my heart and it drives me even more to work faster and harder to getting our homestudy license complete.. ASAP.

But in the meantime.. things have been so busy, but in such a positive way. I made an advent calendar this year with an activity or something to do each day.. and oh boy has that made me crazy kept me on my toes! Along with all the adoption paperwork, reading, research, fundraising (just beginning this step) and everything else that goes along with the whole process.

Lately, we have been running into a challenge. Keeping this from from certain people and we have discussed back and forth about disclosing the fact that we are adopting to certain people, but then decide against it. I get nervous that something might happen or fall through and I just don't feel ready to tell most people. But running into some situations where I feel like we almost are deceiving our friends has been hard. We haven't lied, but at times I feel terrible about misleading or making them think otherwise.

I am so looking forward to the homestudy being completed. When I feel that we can start letting people know, more than the immediate family.

PRIDE training was very interesting and I found that there were times where it was very depressing, scary and horrifying thinking about certain situations or that our future child could have gone through such a horrible life before they become a part of our family. And that we would miss out on all of that!! It just breaks my heart, but at the same time, my heart swells with happiness thinking about expanding our family and having another child to LOVE!

I also felt that PRIDE was a good tool, even just as a parent, I felt that I learned some new techniques and gained knowledge on understanding how children work or what they need or how to handle certain situations. So all in all it was good, but they do prepare you for the bad, so that when you get anything better than that, that it just seems that more awesome!

 

Right now I'm starting to expand some research on fundraising.. trying to find some good ideas and websites that can help with that.

There are grants that are available to apply for, but most of them require a completed homestudy and we just aren't at that point yet.

I hope to do a post just about fundraiser ideas!! Coming soon... {fingers crossed}

 

I will be starting up school again in the new year... this 2 month break is exactly what I needed!!

 

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!