May 1st.
The day we told Rowan.
Little did she know that a few hours after I took these pictures that she would be finding out that she is going to be a big sister.
we decided to tell her at dinner, while we were eating.
it was a bit conflicting at the beginning, but ended with being VERY excited!
we were honest with her and tried to explain in 5 year old terms what it means to adopt through foster care. and that's where the tears came in.
she was crying and then she was excited.
and then she cried again. because she wanted the baby to come TOMORROW.
if only, my sweet child, if only.
now she's back to being very happy and very excited
and of course telling everyone.
it's a little awkward with her telling people because she says i'm going to be a big sister
or saying i'm going to have a little brother or sister!
and then they automatically think i'm pregnant.
i have thought about this multiple times before.
my body will get scrutiny before and after the baby.
because people will automatically assume that i am pregnant
or just gave birth (if the baby looks like us)
so i'm trying to prepare myself.
i'm confident and comfortable with my body most of the time.
but don't we all get days where we are self conscious?
hoping that's not a day where someone asks me how i'm going to loose the baby weight! ha!
on that note.. rowan is thrilled to become a big sister.
and she's so caring and nurturing that i know she's going to be FABULOUS at it!
