As I blog

I am writing or talking to nobody.

nobody. at all.

While making this blog is a little risky for me. you see...

no one knows about my blog. yet. just my hubby. but being as he's in Afghanistan he doesn't even read it.

The thing is. We have told very select people that we are adopting. My mom. my sister and brother. I have also told my two besties.. Tarah and Josh (aka Christopher).

We have sworn them to secrecy. Bubba and I both feel that we don't want to share the news with people until our homestudy is done and approved. We feel like we will get through the process fine and we believe we will be approved, but many things could happen and we feel like it's announcing that you are trying to have a baby.. and then never actually pregnant. or maybe it takes a long time to get pregnant. and then you have everybody asking you all the time about it and wondering what takes so long. Being as even with the few people we have told, not a lot of people understand the process, the paperwork, all the training, and the time and all the PATIENCE involved with adoption.

So as I blog... to NO ONE.. I take a bit of a risk, with someone stumbling upon my blog that knows us. The odds are almost NIL, but you never know.. weirder things have happened.

But this is my out. my journal. my experiences. my life. I don't want to forget the feelings, trials, and process of the whole adoption. It's a new thing to us and I find there is very little on the open and honestness that goes into the feelings during the whole process. So that's me. Recording it for ALL..or no one.. or just me..  to read.

adios!