Cold Feet? Already?!

This is an honest blog. I am an honest person.

{for the most part. who doesn't avoid someone's feelings getting hurt to tell them they did a great job or look good in something, right?}

So right now I'm starting to get really nervous about the whole adoption process. But who wouldn't right?

With Bubba being in Afghanistan and our adoption specialist coming to our house at the end of the month, I'm feeling scared. nervous. like i'm getting cold feet.

I know that part of this is because I don't rather enjoy doing this process alone, but really want to be able to get it started being as it can take awhile.

Ugh. what to do. the only thing to do is push on. push through the nerves.

However, we haven't even gotten our entire list of "to-dos" for the whole process. And I am starting to think.. why are people who are willing families put through the ringer to adopt. I understand the process. I think that it's great that they make people talk about most things.

But why is that someone can get pregnant and they aren't asked where they are going to sleep that night or if there are enough bedrooms in the house. or how much money is in their bank account. or what their relationship is like with their parents. or asked about previous relationships.

i get it. i understand. but we are also at the VERY beginning of the process and I am already seeing why everyone doesn't adopt. this will be a long process where we will have to have a lot of patience.

things will be better when bubba gets home. he always balances me.

for now.. i think about everything i should have done by the time our adoption specialist comes to our house at the end of the month. uffda.